the imperfect me {at 40}

I have this idea of what a perfect housewife and mother looks like…a perfectly organized home, a well-balanced & nutritious dinner on the table every day, always gracious, patient, smiling and with time and energy left over at the end of the day to devote to her loving husband. Reality check. I don’t measure up. But I try anyway, and get very discouraged when I don’t. I fail. Every day.

I have this idea of what a perfect Christian looks like…consistent in Bible study and prayer, a desire (and time) to be involved in church ministry and a spiritual walk that runs smoothly without the storm of anxiety raging inside me. I fail. I try anyway and fail. I get discouraged when I fail but keep trying and asking the Lord for help and His grace in the everyday.

Teach me Lord that “your grace is all I need. Your power works best in [my] weakness.” 2 Corinthians 12:9 NLT

I am well aware of my failures. I beat myself up over them, but mostly I want to learn to accept myself as a work in progress–failures & accomplishments. I want to accept others in the same way and want others to accept me…the imperfect me.