“Gentle words are a tree of life; a deceitful tongue crushes the spirit.” Proverbs 15:4 NLT
I’ve been loosing my temper lately. A lot. I am ashamed to say that I find myself yelling at my kids a little more for the littlest infractions. Sometimes I catch myself in the middle of a psycho-mommy moment and stop. Other days…well, let’s just say “the day is long and my fuse is short.”
As if my life isn’t chaotic and demanding enough, anxiety has taken hold of my life over the last few years. That is just one more stress to add to the pile and at times the stress is overwhelming. As mothers the pressure is on to be “good” at all times.
I know that I am not alone with my feelings. Every mother can relate. The demands are high. Demands come from every direction; work, housework, school, wife, activities, family, friends, finances and life in general.
Realizing that taking my own stress out on my loved ones is the wrong way to go about life. I have already seen the signs in my oldest daughter – out of frustration she yells too. So, before it is too late, I am taking steps to stop this destructive behavior.
This is not the legacy I want to hand down to my kids. I don’t want them to remember that mommy yelled all the time. I want them to see the happy me. How we talk to our kids teaches them how to talk to others.
Everyday is a life lesson. It’s more pressure, but the reward is great.
Admitting I have a problem is the first step to change. I have been praying to God for guidance. Enlisting help from Him will help me control my tongue.
I have posted the above scripture on my refrigerator door. Every time I open the door I will read it until it becomes ingrained in my brain. Seeing the Lord’s word everyday will give me strength.
Is there something you need to change in your life? Have faith He will lead you in the direction you need to go. Ask and you shall receive.